How To Heal

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I have been prompted to ponder and study the topic of healing … a good beginning for healing … is yourself.  My words to meditate upon for the day:

“True forgiveness is a self-healing process which starts with you and gradually extends to everyone else.”

– Robert Holden

Religion4All is an idea: that every human being (no matter their race, religion, sexuality, social status, lifestyle, or any other possible factor) is LOVED by God; just … as … they are.

We all are loved by God, and NO religion or person has a monopoly on it. Every single person on this planet is loved equally by God … SO many are cut off from God because they are told they don’t belong. God loves everyone … we ALL are beautiful creations … we don’t need to cringe when we hear the words “God”, or “religion”, or…

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Day 25 with a Shaman

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It has been a few days since my last session, but everyday has been abundant with gifts. I am currently focused on releasing judgments. They are all coming to the forefront for review. It was been one test after another but the main message forgiveness.

The same message is coming to me from many different sources; tarot, astrology, strangers, friends, the news, books, movies etc… it is obvious.  It says to focus on compassion, forgiveness, and the love inside everyone. It is not so easy when my feelings are being hurt by others. My old pattern was to make them wrong and justify being right.

It comes down to making different choices in the midst of old scenarios.  It leaves me feeling raw and strong at once. When I open to this, there is a strength that is impenetrable. It exists as the foundation of all that is real. Yet, on the surface it appears weak. It goes against our societal programming.

While journeying to the Upper World today, I was guided to a chair. It was one of ten in a circle, a council of sorts. They were all gathered, waiting for me. I started receiving messages from them. They were saying to remember them as I walk the Earth, to remember my place, and my purpose of being. They stressed the importance of focusing on the likeness/Oneness in everyone. They stated that this was the key to my purpose right now. They said that when I focused on being different, I reminded others of suffering and there is no time for that.

Then, they passed a golden cord around, until everyone had a piece on their lap. Simultaneously, we raised the golden rope above our heads and it turned to liquid gold and formed a sphere around us. As it enclosed us, we shifted from ten bodies into one. I realized we were not the only ones in the sphere as it shrunk to the size of my hand. Next thing I know, they were handing me a box with the sphere inside, to bring back with me. It was part of me and an essential reminder. It would keep me from losing myself in the density.

I asked if I could go to the hall of records, and immediately stood at the entrance. I walked over to the book with my name on it. It opened to a page but I couldn’t read it. I put my right hand on one page and the words became a small flame. Opening the palms of both my hands, I watched the flames licking the air. They were extensions of my hands and my body was absorbing the knowledge they offered. They disappeared and I closed my hands.

Next, I asked if I could go to the book of all records. I was taken to it, but could not open it. I was told that I was not ready. I understood. As I returned from my journey, I realized there is nothing to do.


Day 24 with a Shaman

Today, I tried the herbs and could see results already. In addition, I asked for the ability to forgive all the ways that I’ve felt betrayed.

Then, I created another Sand painting, placing my sacred stones of intentions inside. I blew my ideas about myself, others, the world, the planet, the galaxies, etc… I released as much as I could access. I gave it over to Mother Earth to recycle. I set clear Intentions of inviting forgiveness, empowerment of the Divine Feminine, balance with the Masculine, and Abundance.

I left the circle open to continue to work with releasing and holding space for more perfection to enter. As I reached the end, I was filled with a serene grace. I could see clearly that working with the spirit allies of the Earth have brought me more fully here. They are teaching me to live on this planet, a challenge I have struggled with all of my life.

I remember being elated to learn meditation because for me it was a way off of the planet and out of my body. Finally, I could return home without having to wait for death. I left my body every chance I got. I struggled with money constantly and didn’t even realize how ungrounded I was for years!

Now, I see that this path is training me to unite with the Earth and all that it offers. I am humbled by the vastness of what I’ve missed, until now.

Day 23 with a Shaman

Last night I had a fire ceremony to release judgments toward myself and others. I opened sacred space and set my intention to deeply connect with Great Spirit. The fire blazed when I tuned in to fire spirits and not until. It seemed as though they were waiting for me to fully embrace their gift of fire. It inspired awe when I sank beneath the surface of my habitual thoughts. It became more than just a fire; it became a sacred realm full of possibilities.

The air became charged with indescribable electricity. The wind was more than happy to join in and the fire swirled with passion ignited from the origins of my soul. I wrote my judgments out on paper and put them in the fire. The fire was not quick to consume them. I had to come to a place inside to really be ready to let go, and I felt the spirits inviting me. I breathed deeply and finally declared my willingness; the fire accepted my offering and turned it to black smoke.

I closed the circle with the hopes that I would not be tormented by any torturous thoughts, at least for the remainder of the evening. Unfortunately, this was not the case.

I was tested immediately and in the most uncomfortable way. My partner voiced his strong opinion about a few imperfections on my body, claiming that they bothered him. He went on the say; he would help me take care of fixing them. I could have seen it as a test, but I reacted instead. I felt hurt, betrayed and devastated. I cried for quite a while…then heard a soft voice suggesting I ask for help. I decided to listen. I have been working the Eagle/ Condor for a wider perspective, so I called for help. I began letting my awareness go into the Eagle. It created a space between my emotions and the stillness inside.

I then got the message to ask the Owl for guidance in healing these perceived flaws. I asked and listened intently as I heard the name of two herbs. I breathed a deep sigh, relaxed and fell asleep.

Day 22 with a Shaman

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Lately, the story that has been the most prevalent is about dominance of the Masculine that stifles the Feminine. I find myself getting angry when this happens, I don’t always catch the reaction. The masculine energy is accustomed to being in control and panics at the thought of losing control. I am speaking of the masculine inside everyone, especially me. It manipulates, and uses anger to drown out the softness of the feminine. The vulnerability is too intense right now. I watch this within myself and then mirrored outside of me.

Working with the Serpent for two months has activated my second chakra and the feminine energy has started to flow. It comes out feeling like intense sexual energy. Rather than allow it, the masculine part of me wants to change it, suppress it, or calm it down. If it’s not controled, I get waves of shame.

My body has not been accustomed to such focused power. It has been extremely uncomfortable the past week. I have felt like an erotic, throbbing, sensual being to the point of wanting to hide myself. I have not wanted to affect other people with the obvious sexual desire. At the same time, I want to walk around naked as an ancient Goddess under the gorgeous full moon. It’s only natural.

In my session with my Shaman Teacher, she recommended I dance the energy. I thought the idea was brilliant so I went to belly dance class. Through the subtle movements, the flow of the Serpent danced me. It was out of this world! It was embracing, allowing, and absorbing my personal power. It felt wonderful. I have nothing to be afraid of. As it continues to flow, I feel a merging with the Serpent more profoundly than ever. I feel grateful.