Day 12 with a Shaman

Am I dreaming or am I awake? If I am dreaming, what do I want to do?

For years, mornings have been difficult for me because I fly free in my dreams. It is hard to instantly feel the limitation of my physical body when I awaken. I have had the trapped feeling of having no choice but to follow the rules of man. I would sleep a lot just to have the freedom that I yearned for. Then, I began experimenting with lucid dreaming.

On the occasion when I realized I was in a dream, I could play and create all I wanted. It was divine play and incredibly fulfilling. Then, I would come back to waking state with a dark dread. It made my life seemingly unbearable at times. Now, with the help of this practice, I am realizing I can more consciously play that way in the waking state. I don’t mean law of attraction as much as bringing fantasy into this realm. Now, that sounds exciting! Some might say unrealistic, head in the clouds…I call it finally being really alive! This is what I’ve yearned for!

When people have told me to live the life I’ve imagined, I’ve wondered if they even knew what they were asking. I didn’t see a world big enough for my fantastical visions. The dream car, house, and American dream were not enough. I wanted to play with the Gods/Goddesses, Angels, Animal spirits and all the things you couldn’t see. Even though they were out of sight, they were still very much alive.

I can make choices about my life according to creation itself. I can paint the canvas a thousand shades of green with a vibrant purple splashed across. With the most profound passion, I can live boldly and sing the song of my soul to ignite the fire of Earth. This can be my choice.

If I’m dreaming, where are the limits? Who decides boundaries? Do they even exist? When we realize we are dreaming what can actually stop us?


9 thoughts on “Day 12 with a Shaman

  1. kzackuslheureux says:

    Really Great Post. Be Careful, there is a dark side to the bright side, always focus on the good, and the right, and I’m sure you’ll glow. 🙂

    • kzackuslheureux says:

      Very True, and thanks for the compliment, I had a 1920’s wedding and a photographer with an amazing talent, making us all look classy!
      Best to you darling.

  2. WordsFallFromMyEyes says:

    Wow, this was interesting. But day 12?! I’m amazed you lasted that long!! I envy your journey though, this would be great to step out of life, & do.
    btw, this is from – not – I just don’t know how to use my second blog avatar!

    • WordsFallFromMyEyes says:

      Oh, thank you notes, I am honoured. I do envy you though I can’t deny. 12 days away from my usual duties, work etc would be huge! You must have earned it, I am sure. It’s great you’re detailing it, for it’s very intimate to read your account. Cheers, & thank you 🙂

  3. ‘I dreamed I was a butterfly, free in the sky; then I awoke. Now I wonder: Am I a man who dreamed he was a butterfly, or am I a butterfly dreaming that I am a man?’ ~ Chuang Tzu, Taoist sage

  4. sweetj2 says:

    I’m looking forward to reading your blog and thank you for sharing your journey. Lucid dreaming is so fantastic – I love when it happens to me. I usually jump up and fly.

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