Today was simple but beautiful. I opened sacred space and called in the four directions. As I was calling in the North, a hummingbird flew over to me. I had to find rocks and sticks to make a sand painting. Then, I found a rock for three core issues. I picked one for feeling bad just for being alive (that’s a rough one), and another for feeling like if I’m in my full power, I will lose everything. I reflected on these for a while after my sand painting.
I left the space open, as instructed, so the Earth can be with my issues. I immediately started feeling annoyed and watched the opportunities to confirm my issues surface. I sat with the feelings and thanked my ego for trying to protect me. This was challenging but I kept doing it repeatedly for the rest of the day. By night, I was exhausted from the tug of war in my mind. I will persevere.